The Book Of THoTH

I believe we all have mental abilities we can further developed which might be regarded as paranormal. Really, true ability is all mental and the appendages we have are much more of a simplistic adaptive nature than the wide scope of capabilities. Likewise, I think individuals tend to develop different abilities at different stages.

So anyhow, I wouldn't consider myself particularly developed compared to what's out there. But I'm also a skeptic at heart. I need to know that this is actually an ability rather than wholeheartedly assume I just have it. Either way, I go with the possible rationale and leave it to others to decide.

So I like to call my ability the "imprint." It works a bit like this . . .

An idea pops into my head that would seem like total fiction. But it doesn't have to be very exciting fiction. A lot of it is rather dry and one might say more philosophical-sounding then testable ideas. (Sometimes it is testable). But I like "imprint" because it feels like someone or something put it there just for whatever reason and it was kind of a sporadic, unplanned thing. It was just placed into my mind, but it isn't a program to make me desire different things or do actions. It also isn't a direct answer to anything specific I'm thinking about . . . though my thoughts will often tend to steer the kinds of imprints I might get.

Let me give you an example. I was riding on the bus, and I thought of this meditation technique. But it isn't something I tried to rationalize. It isn't something I even thought was that exciting or imaginative. But suddenly after thinking it I thought the sort of "Oh my gosh! I should tell everyone because I know it's true!" But wait a sec! My skeptical mind pans back. What the heck made me think this is true? It's not like I see any real opportunity to peddle this to get money. I don't even expect any fame. Sometimes I'd rather say it anonymously if it will help the information be received better. But it's like . . . it's there! It's information that has to be shared!

There are other dynamics to it. It has its highest potential when I'm (1) not looking to control any beings. As soon as I have an attitude of controlling others or hurting others (and I don't claim to be benevolent in any way!) suddenly the "imprints" become dangerous to myself and they don't really tell me anything useful. They just make bad things happen to me. That's about it. (2) not wanting to know about specific things. Like a person's specific thoughts, a building, a recent event, or even the name for something. It has to be very general like a process for doing something or an effective method. But it's rarely ever something testable like a technological discovery. Still I'll stop and go "That's it! That's how it must work!" Well, skeptical mind says, how what must work? What am I actually trying to prove? How is this going to do anything I want? I don't know. (3) I have to want everything shared. I've never really wanted knowledge so that I could know for myself. I just wanted to take it and spread it. I don't even care if it never becomes useful for my own life. But the imprint is generally there only when I want to spread it, and not "find out" anything for myself.

The other strange thing about it is it seems to have to do with me desiring things that would seem completely absurd to our common goals. Have you ever slept under a tree or in a delapitated shelter? Can you imagine wanting to do this over any modern house? Even a mansion all to yourself? Does it make a difference to you how close you are to natural ground? Or how covered you are from the sky? It does to me. I feel like I've wanted to burrow underground and stay there since as early as I can remember. But since I have obligations and seeming no other circumstances beyond just living on the surface, I find that I want to take long busrides. I'll go all the way from one end of the city to the other, and back, when I could be doing many other things, and I'll just stare out the window at the ground and the sky. I NEVER want to stare at the sky when it's not from a window. But I will stare at things on the ground like rivers and shrubs and caverns. I want to walk through the rivers . . . walk on them in addition preferred. I want to move through shrubs, trees, and caverns. I have no problem with heights, but I don't so much like open heights in the sky. I'd prefer very high places that are still underground.

When I am doing these sorts of things, it seems like the imprints get stronger.

I want things very opposite from what many people do. I don't like big places all to myself, even though I'm not that sociable. I just like keeping to myself in a heavily cloistered place, covered in all sides. If I was given a mansion, I'd probably sell it and look for a lifestyle that best suits as I've described. I can't think of any life experience which would encourage this desire. So why?

I'm not saying that I do but I think I have psychic abilities. Stuff varies like when I dream sometimes I dream about my life only I dream of things and stuff I haven't done yet. Then that day whatever I dreamt about will come true it happens alot. Other times when I dream I dream about people I have never known and not famous people just regular people and everytime I haved looked into it those people they're well gone. Not to mention I have a hard time going in to buildings I get overwhelmed with feeling and most of the time I know nothing about the building or it's history. I just moved to minnesota and sinceI came here these feelings got stronger and the dreams more specific. SometimesI feel other people around me when there is no one there. And sometimes I call them by what I feel theyre name is. I don't know what to do or how to hone it so to speak. If you or anyone has an idea please let me know I'm losing people I love because they can't understand it and I hate feeling alone and freakish.

This post is more about psychology than any mental phenomena. But it's a response to your concern about people being crazy.

Perhaps you should remind those people you love that the clinical definition of insanity is to do the same thing over and over, expecting different results.

Believing or doing strange things does not mean insanity. Insanity has to have a chronic element to it (happens again and again). And if they feel that leaving you is a rational fear of craziness, then this is clearly not so, because they would have to isolate a very chronic issue rather than a belief system.

Eg:

Crazy--

"I will walk into this wall and a purple jelly fish will pop out of it. I've walked into it a hundred times already, but this time it will happen for sure."

Not crazy--

"I think a purple jellyfish lives inside that wall. Perhaps if we analyze this we will find this to be the case."

The other concept psychologists may use is about being realistic. Some may say that belief in paranormal things is unrealistic, though still sane. It is considered our responsibility to be realistic about things- so if you end up homeless because you're unrealistic, that's your problem. But your friend doesn't have to fear you- many realistic people are still more violently dangerous than many unrealistic people.

In fact . . . psychopaths have a reputation for being very capable of getting good jobs, having an orderly family, being patient or resilient. Everyone around them would assume they're a "model of mental health" The only problem is- human life is meaningless to them. They'll chop you up in pieces and feed you to a dog without a second thought- as long as it suits their concept of an orderly life.

The same sort of things happen to me all the time, but I would say that I realize them because they are true, everything is true, its just to what degree, "if that makes sense", I've always been skeptical and analytical, although in different ways now, I still am. As a person spiritually progresses, so does their understanding of truth and things that are true.
A lot of this stuff could be related to past lives, and rediscovering
Well this is what I have to come find.

A good portion of what people consider "imprints" or unconscious thoughts that just pop into our head or unreasonable fears or desires are indeed past life memories and conditionings. The sudden "idea" of how to do a specific activity or knowledge of a specific event or solution to a problem is a past life memory that is stored within your own soul. Many people call it akeshik(spelling) memory or universal memory, but I bleieve it to be the personal soul memory. You are not crazy because you have sudden knowledge or because you feel fear in particular situations. Perhaps you were a particular animal in a past life that lived underground, that would certainly justify the fear of the open sky and the desire to be underground or undercover.

Doing a past life review or spirit retreaval helps to not only understand the issues of the particular past life but the reuniting of the pieces of spirit left behind at a particular time and space is very benificial to overcomming unconscious and unreasioning fears and thoughts. Often those past lives and pieces of spirit are calling to us and that is what causes odd dreams and thoughts. They want ot be reunited with the whole, or the soul.

Namana